Sleep would be nice...

Sleep deprivation is torture. I can't tell you how much I adore my sleep. I know that parenting a newborn is filled with sleepless nights. You would think I would have remembered that part. I think that someone upstairs makes mothers forget that tid bit so they will reproduce again. Otherwise there would be no people on earth.

As you can tell, I'm tired. I feel exhausted. I really don't get anything done.

Josh is doing good. He's an expert breastfeeder. The only bad thing is that is all he wants to do. He nurses quite a bit during the night, every two hours on the dot. He also cluster feeds during the day and is very sporadic. I feel like he's always hooked up to my bosom. I hope it gets better over time because right now I'm on a rollercoaster in our breastfeeding relationship. The days, I don't mind... the nights, I cringe when I hear that little cry. The best moments are looking down at him and seeing his face as he nurses. He definately enjoys it. I also enjoy the fact that he's getting his nourishment from me and only me. No formula!

We think he might be a tad bit colicky too. He cries quite a bit when he's awake. He is definately having some digestive issues. I don't think its a milk allergy or anything like that. We tried some Mylicon last night and it seemed to help him. He made about 5 poopy diapers in a row and finally fell asleep. We're trying to figure it out and find a solution. I looked up Colic online and really think he shows all the symptoms. It said that babies show signs between 3-6 weeks (his age now) and it usually goes away on its own by 3 months. I hope I can handle it! Mr. Big's brother had colic real bad as an infant and his mother always tells the horror stories.

Otherwise, He's a good baby. He's scrumptious! He's got the cutest, chubbiest cheeks that I munch on all day. He smells heavenly. His cute hands and feet are delicious. He is just awesome! I love babies, but MY babies just ice my cake. I can't believe I've been pregnant twice and have two children. I love it!

Jake is doing extremely well as a big brother. Like I've mentioned, he really loves on Josh and is very concerned about him all day long. He helps bring me burp cloths and diapers. He kisses on his head and hands. If anything he is too much of a helper! He has shown no signs of jealousy (knock on wood). The only thing that he has been apprehensive about is the breastfeeding and breast pump. He isn't too sure about Josh breastfeeding. He will come over and point and ask what he's doing. I tell him and now he gets it, but still stares and looks kind of worried. The breastpump is okay now because I let him turn it on for me when I sit down to use it. He loves that little task and runs when he sees me heading for the chair. I only pump once or twice a day to help relieve some pressure, so its a rare treat during the day.

I've lost all my pregnancy weight. I am back in regular clothes. I look lumpy though and have some work to do to get my body back anytime soon. I do not plan on dieting, but would like to lose an additional 15-20 lbs and get back to my pre-marriage weight. I also would like to get back in my aerobics classes and tone up. I had been working out when I got pregnant this time and I really missed it during pregnancy. If anything aerobics was "my time" and gave me something to do at night while Mr. Big babysat. I plan on doing that again, when I feel up to it and can leave Josh for more than 30 minutes.

I've also been thinking about a vacation. I want to go somewhere, just Mr. Big and I. I want to plan it now and go when Josh is about 12-15 months old. I figure that a vacation before another baby or pregnancy would be nice. We also traveled quite a bit before children. I miss that! It's all a give and take thing though. When you start a family, you give up things you did before. It has just not been in the budget and we've had our child on our minds. We both didn't want to leave him behind. I think now, with two, we know we need that time together. It is okay to leave our babies with trusted grandparents for a long weekend and spend some time together. Plus, we will both be bringing in our respective 30 and 40th birthdays next year. Gulp! So, we have some celebrating to do. I will actually be able to enjoy a frosty beverage this year too! Amen, Sister (or Brother)!!!!

Okay-here I am rambling! My elder son is watching the Wiggles. I have laundry piled up. The baby is sleeping in the Boppy pillow on my bed and I'm a walking zombie. Caffeine, anyone? Uh, nope... I'm breastfeeding. Sigh! Till next time...