Vivarin, Where are you?

I've only been this tired while pregnant. I'm just exhausted. Physically and Mentally at the end of my day I'm tired. I've been working my ass off. Literally! I've gone down another pant size and lost another 5 pounds. Stress will do that to a person. I'm not complaining about the weight loss. I could stand to drop a few more pounds.

The kids don't know what is taking place. I packed some of Jacob's things yesterday and he was in his room asking me why I was putting his things in boxes. We've been telling him that we're buying a new home to live in and that Jacob is getting a new room. He repeats all that we say and seems to understand. I realized that he does not understand completely because last night as I was folding clothes in the laundry room he came in and declared that "He loved his new room" and pointed joyfully down to his now bare room. Mr. Big and I just laughed as we knew he does not understand. I'll just keep at it and hopefully he'll get it. We have toted both the boys with us during the home buying experience. Jacob even gave us input whether or not he liked a certain house we were viewing. Mr. Big would get down to his level and ask him "Jacob, Do you like this house". To which he'd reply "Yes, I love this house" or "No, I don't like this house". It's funny because when he likes something its not just "I like this", It's "I love this". So freaking cute!

I'm really, really excited! We're looking at paint samples for the living room and the nursery. I love decorating and painting. I'm excited about the projects. Of course, it is all hard work and I'm exhausted but one day the dust will settle and I'll have my life back. Right now it is all hard work and stress. I'm looking to the future when I'm sitting in the kitchen eating dinner with my husband and kids and laughing about our day. That thought is refreshing to think about.